Realization

Today my boyfriend told me i don't love him anymore and i actually had to think about it. Do i really still love this man that at one point i couldn't live without? I no longer tingle when he kisses me or go insane if we cant sleep together. Now that i give it some thought nothing is the same about us anymore. He is the man that calls too much, he is too affectionate, he is messy, and mist of all he just annoys the hell out of me.

I mean on the outside everyone thinks we are the perfect couple. We are good but thats just because i know what he wants and he knows what i want. We do things to make it easier on each other. It's almost as if im with this man just because my family excepts him and i dont wanna take the energy out to make something else work.

Eventually i came to the conclusion that i dont love this man. Sadly i have also came to the conclusion that i have too much time and effort toward this relationship just to call it quits. If this means that somedays i will be miserable then so be it. This will probably be the man that i marry and have kids with.Maybe i should have stayed in my fantasy world where i had convinced myself that what we had was love.

None of this matters in the end. I will more than likely marry this man and have a beautiful photo album. We will probably have three kids who will not know the meaning of a broken home and we will probably be with each other for the rest of our lives. Or until he comes to his own Realization.